nanowrimo and matters of the heart

[mayachain]

mini_nanowrimo is over! I met my goal and then some, am very excited and relieved and happy and just feeling generally accomplished for it.


I committed to writing 400 words a day, but secretly tried to make it 500 - and succeeded with that on each day but one. (498! Nothing would fit in anywhere! But yeah, I could have upped the committment.) There were ups and downs concerning enthusiasm, and especially during the last days I had to kick myself real hard to fucking sit down to write something and not quit so close to the end.

Some days, I sat down at my desk at home to fulfill my goal, some days I tuned out a lecture and scribbled stuff down, and once or twice I got finished during the ride home. One possible drawback of this is that there's no one college block where everything is, and if my some mishap I happen to have lost a bit I'm going to be sooo mad, but the thought was to write whenever time and inspiration were available.

One thing that worked well for me was that I didn't stick to one story or even one fandom. There was a longer HP story I wanted to write a first draft of, and I did, but on days where I felt completely uninspired for that or was hit by other ideas I just went with it.
The result (which I added up yesterday, because I simply had to know) is 5893 words of X-Men Movieverse, 7433 of HP, and 3475 of Supernatural.

So, close to 17000 words in 30 days. The quality is... erratic, one could say; two bits got to posting stage, some bits I'm quite satisfied with, some are blah and some are hideous, but they're there on whatever form of paper I used to scribble them on, passably legible and ready for further editing. I hate writing first drafts, because unless I get very lucky they're just not good, but without writing them naturally there can be no improvement... And this month I was "forced" to write a whole pile of first drafts, and even more than meeting the count goal every day, I feel that's my biggest accomplishment.

The best thing? I'm thinking of just continuing, albeit with half the word count. Let's wait and see whether or not I've gotten into a habit.

If I try very hard, both this knowledge and all the work I've got from university will keep me from freaking out because of the not-so-great news from today's cardiological check-up. Thinking on it rationally, I know there's really nothing to be freaking out about, there's no immediate crisis, no-one is rushing me to the hospital. It's just one less than stellar number from the various numbers that could point towards imminent surgery, maybe they won't even stick a camera in me. I'm not even that surprised, but I still didn't really think this would happen right now, and in a not-so-well hidden part of my mind, I'm having a good cry.

But! I won the mini_nano! In Wednsday, my speech is going to kick ass! *nods*

- mayachain